Friday, June 08, 2007

If i were ever to be given a chance to reverse time, i wan to reverse to the time when i first fall for her.

It will be 219 days ago.

It was drama night, i was still hoping i could go back to 6A-05. I nvr like the class in sec 1. Hated the drama night even more. To accomplish the tasks, i co-operated wit the rest to finish my job as a crew. It eventually succeeded, felt glad tat it was finally over. While waiting for Grand Finale, we were all asked to hold our hands when we get up the stage later on. I was told by another gal tat i shld be glad to be able to hold a pretty gal's hand. I felt weird. I looked at her, suddenly had tat awkward feeling. Just then, i realised tat i had gradually fell in luv wit her. We created our own closing style when we were on the stage(so tat i will nt nid to hold her hand, despite tat its my honour to).

Reach home, i msg her about feeling so united as a class for the first time. I didnt told her how i feel like juz now for i knew she had someone whom she liked alot. I admired her. Her style of talking, her way of doing things, & most importantly, her smile~

I began searching for a gal, juz to forget her for i know she's still admiring the same guy.

Watching another guy holding her hands made me feel irritated. hoping i was the one doing the same thing.

Heard from her fren tat she cried over him again! i felt like bashing the guy up, why cant he treasure her when he had the chance to. He shld feel fortunate. I envy him, really. If only i was him. I swore, if i was given a chance to take care of her, i would not let her suffer, nor make her CRY!

I was walking to the canteen to refill my water, walking past her, i looked into her eyes n greeted each other pretending to be normal frenz. Its frustruating, to keep things deep inside my heart.

She told me she had given up on tat guy whom she had liked for more than a year. I was wondering why as she told me her reasons. Tats when i began to drop hints to show tat i like her. Waitin' for her to realise tat.

She came for the preparation one day, and we were playing wit the stopwatches. We tried to stop at the fastest timing. We hit everything, the table, the chair, the floor. I even allowed her to hit my palm. she asked me repeatedly if it was pain, but i dun feel a single thing, i looked at her, smiling to me while trying to get the fastest timing. I felt like the happiest man in the world.

It was the first time she said "jiayou" to me! I was over the moon! I told her i will. I lost the race later on, I felt devastated. I didnt fulfil wat i said. I was reluctant to tell her tis piece of news bt someone told her later on. I sat on the grass patch, tears eventually rolled down my cheeks. She asked me nt to be ponder too much over it for i alrdy tried my best. I promised to win the race during the 3rd sports meet.

Many misunderstandings happened before tat, she told me to "jiayou" once again. I ran as fast as i could during the race, but yet, i lost it.

Many misunderstandings happened. But never did i once forget about her stuffs. I rmbed she will get carsick for very long trips. I rmbed she dun feel comfortable talking to a person while sitting in front of the person. I brought some sour plums hoping she will feel more comfortable eating it(but i do not hav a chance to present it to her)I was hoping to hav fun wit her & her frenz while at Malacca but the misunderstandings which arised, caused many conflicts between us.

I really hoped tat we can go back to the same way, when i can see u smile, and we can hav fun together. I am still waitin' , waitin' for tat day to arrive~