Saturday, September 18, 2010
Hey, im back, at the time of 2.56am.
I envy weijie, i hate myself. I envy him for treasuring you at the right time. I hate myself for not being able to be the best friend/brather/suitor you ever had.
I think i have felt all those deservingly things i should be feeling. Seeing you two writing letters, im really envious, really. I wish i had this opportunity to communicate even the slightest with you. Comeuppance?I dare not say, but definitely to some extent. I wanna say i really miss your presence, even as a friend. I have no courage to face you, I totally cant bring myself to tell you face to face im sorry just because i cant. I feel like a totally useless person when i can only stare at your past messages on my old phone, telling myself i should have treasured you, i should have..
Memories flooded me whenever i feel alone in the night. I thought of you, the times we spent, be it movies, going out or chatting over the phone. I still remember vividly how you sneaked out to your fridge to eat a chocolate in the middle of the night at arnd 3.30am, the day before we went snow city.
Sometimes i really resign myself to fate. I remember I told myself this, "I will only be looking after you when Weijie's not around" and now that he is back, i feel sad to leave. Are we destine to end up this way?I know im at fault for playing the most part of it, but who knows why i do so. I doubt anyone, or perhaps, only one or two of my closest of friends. If we are destined to end up like this, why give me two opportunities to meet you, or three! (Sec 2 prank, P.s. i loveyou outing, its a boy girl thing.) I wish we separate soon, so probably you will be forgotten fast, or rather i wont have to face you everyday, reminiscing our past. How strainful it is, to have to endure it everyday? Why meet you. Why???????????????? I know im like ranting, but sometimes i just gotta say the truth. If meeting you brings all these undesired situation, why bother. I know i suck, seriously i do.
I hope you two will be back together again, my two lost friends.
Stop and stare, no more.
End.
I envy weijie, i hate myself. I envy him for treasuring you at the right time. I hate myself for not being able to be the best friend/brather/suitor you ever had.
I think i have felt all those deservingly things i should be feeling. Seeing you two writing letters, im really envious, really. I wish i had this opportunity to communicate even the slightest with you. Comeuppance?I dare not say, but definitely to some extent. I wanna say i really miss your presence, even as a friend. I have no courage to face you, I totally cant bring myself to tell you face to face im sorry just because i cant. I feel like a totally useless person when i can only stare at your past messages on my old phone, telling myself i should have treasured you, i should have..
Memories flooded me whenever i feel alone in the night. I thought of you, the times we spent, be it movies, going out or chatting over the phone. I still remember vividly how you sneaked out to your fridge to eat a chocolate in the middle of the night at arnd 3.30am, the day before we went snow city.
Sometimes i really resign myself to fate. I remember I told myself this, "I will only be looking after you when Weijie's not around" and now that he is back, i feel sad to leave. Are we destine to end up this way?I know im at fault for playing the most part of it, but who knows why i do so. I doubt anyone, or perhaps, only one or two of my closest of friends. If we are destined to end up like this, why give me two opportunities to meet you, or three! (Sec 2 prank, P.s. i loveyou outing, its a boy girl thing.) I wish we separate soon, so probably you will be forgotten fast, or rather i wont have to face you everyday, reminiscing our past. How strainful it is, to have to endure it everyday? Why meet you. Why???????????????? I know im like ranting, but sometimes i just gotta say the truth. If meeting you brings all these undesired situation, why bother. I know i suck, seriously i do.
I hope you two will be back together again, my two lost friends.
Stop and stare, no more.
End.
i know that i have loved you ... at 2:56 AM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
